Mom of Ontario teen who was allegedly sold poison to self-harm is healing by fundraising in his memory

WARNING: This story contains distressing details and discusses suicide:

The image of Ashtyn Prosser throwing his grad cap in the air at Jackson Park in Windsor, Ont., park is one of the more challenging pictures for Kim Prosser to view.

"All this potential is just gone. The start of adulthood and he never made it there," she said, sitting on a bench in Wheatley, Ont. 

Her son was a month away from his 20th birthday when he died by suicide. 

"What a dynamic, amazing person to be around," she said, further describing him as funny, brilliant, amazing and colourful. 

As Prosser tells her story, three birds tattooed onto her forearm peek out from underneath her sweater. Ashtyn loved to draw, and this past Christmas she agreed to get matching tattoos, along with her oldest son.

It's a permanent memory that makes her think of him with his "crazy awesome smile."

Ashtyn's life was cut short when he allegedly bought a lethal substance off the internet from a 57-year-old Toronto-area man. 

Police allege Kenneth Law operated websites selling sodium nitrite and other suicide paraphernalia from late 2020 to this past spring, mailing 1,200 packages to 40 countries, including 160 to Canadian addresses.

Law faces 14 counts of counselling or aiding suicide in Ontario. 

B.C. RCMP told CBC News this week they had opened "at least six investigations" related to an unspecified number of victims across Ontario. Calgary police are also probing two sudden deaths for possible connections to Law. 

According to a CBC tally, Law is suspected of being linked to more than 110 deaths worldwide, in countries such as the U.S., Britain, Ireland, Italy and New Zealand.

Law is set for another court appearance on Friday. He remains in custody and has denied all allegations against him. 

Prosser admits there's a number of ways she could feel about someone allegedly selling her child poison, but ultimately has decided it's not what matters.