Karan Johar On Body Dysmorphia: "In Moments Of Intimacy I Put The Lights Out"

Karan Johar said, "I felt I was failing my parents"

Karan Johar recently talked about his struggle with body dysmorphia and how he was not comfortable with his "effeminate voice" in an interview with Faye D'Souza on her YouTube channel. Karan Johar revealed that he used to attend voice modulation classes secretly and he thought he failed his parents as he was conditioned to believe he was not like the "other boys" in his class. Karan Johar told Faye D'Souza, "I felt I failed a lot as a child first. I felt I was failing my parents. I felt I wasn't the boy that they should have had. I was conditioned to believe that because I was effeminate. I was unlike all the other boys in my school."

Speaking of his struggle with body dysmorphia, Karan Johar said, "I have body dysmorphia. I am very awkward getting into a pool. I don't know how to do it without feeling pathetic. I try hard to overcome it. I always wear oversized clothes." He added, "Even in moments of intimacy I put the lights out."

Recalling a specific incident, Karan Johar said, "There was this talent competition and everyone was performing, and I did a dance. I could tell that some people were sneering and laughing and my mother was in the audience. I remember going to the house, closing the door and crying thinking, 'Why can't I be like other boys?'"